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ichinichinemasuOkay, so this job thing has escalated so I thought I'd post and ask your opinions, because I am honestly at my wits end trying to maneuver about it.
I applied for the ASL position for this coming school year. However, it looks like I'm not getting that job, although as far as I know the librarian at LWN still has not picked an After School Leader. So, one of my bosses over in TOPSS calls me in about three days ago and says she has thought of an alternative. They need a Teen Outreach Specialist for the Northeast area and she tells me she thinks I'd be perfect for the job. TOS visit schools and parents to promote the library. They also run weekly programs for teens at various branches. It's a prestigious position with its own office at NERL and at sixteen dollars an hour. So she sent off my application with glowing recommendations to the NE area coordinators, and I am supposed to interview on Monday.
The other position is Library Intern. It's twelve dollars an hour, and I would basically study under one librarian for the year, at FOX. It also has paid training and travel opportunities.
But I was conferring with my family and wondering if TOS would be too hard for me during the school year. It's a lot of work that rides solely on me and it's a lot of traveling. They also want you to work up to twenty hours a week. So I tried to talk to my boss in TOPSS, and say maybe I won't have enough time, but she says "You can make up the hours during the break. It's a great opportunity, and don't turn it down." In a friendly way. Plus, if I take the library intern position it's just more work under Theresa, for less money, so that's bad too.
I don't know what to do. I suppose I'll interview for the TOS position and see where it goes from there. But what if it's really too much? And how do I turn it down when everyone over in TOPSS seems to think it's great for me and is pushing me to do it? They have high hopes for me, and Sandie is sort of depending on me to do it. School comes first, though, you know? Gah. I don't even know if I want to *be* a librarian. I have no idea what I want to be. And it's getting serious at this point, I'm a Junior. Oh, the angst.
And I hate what I'm doing now. Stupid YLASP training. Stupid Theresa. Stupid library cuts which make being SIS coordinator a near impossible job, since there's no one librarian at any branch anymore. Stupid co-workers who don't even acknowledge my birthday. Which sucked yesterday. I was so tired when I got home I didn't even care about the cake.
Alright, I'm sorry, I'll stop bitching. I did get a digital camera! And a Starbucks Gift Certificate, lol. I love how my whole family knows what an addict I am.
I applied for the ASL position for this coming school year. However, it looks like I'm not getting that job, although as far as I know the librarian at LWN still has not picked an After School Leader. So, one of my bosses over in TOPSS calls me in about three days ago and says she has thought of an alternative. They need a Teen Outreach Specialist for the Northeast area and she tells me she thinks I'd be perfect for the job. TOS visit schools and parents to promote the library. They also run weekly programs for teens at various branches. It's a prestigious position with its own office at NERL and at sixteen dollars an hour. So she sent off my application with glowing recommendations to the NE area coordinators, and I am supposed to interview on Monday.
The other position is Library Intern. It's twelve dollars an hour, and I would basically study under one librarian for the year, at FOX. It also has paid training and travel opportunities.
But I was conferring with my family and wondering if TOS would be too hard for me during the school year. It's a lot of work that rides solely on me and it's a lot of traveling. They also want you to work up to twenty hours a week. So I tried to talk to my boss in TOPSS, and say maybe I won't have enough time, but she says "You can make up the hours during the break. It's a great opportunity, and don't turn it down." In a friendly way. Plus, if I take the library intern position it's just more work under Theresa, for less money, so that's bad too.
I don't know what to do. I suppose I'll interview for the TOS position and see where it goes from there. But what if it's really too much? And how do I turn it down when everyone over in TOPSS seems to think it's great for me and is pushing me to do it? They have high hopes for me, and Sandie is sort of depending on me to do it. School comes first, though, you know? Gah. I don't even know if I want to *be* a librarian. I have no idea what I want to be. And it's getting serious at this point, I'm a Junior. Oh, the angst.
And I hate what I'm doing now. Stupid YLASP training. Stupid Theresa. Stupid library cuts which make being SIS coordinator a near impossible job, since there's no one librarian at any branch anymore. Stupid co-workers who don't even acknowledge my birthday. Which sucked yesterday. I was so tired when I got home I didn't even care about the cake.
Alright, I'm sorry, I'll stop bitching. I did get a digital camera! And a Starbucks Gift Certificate, lol. I love how my whole family knows what an addict I am.
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Date: 2005-07-15 05:41 pm (UTC)On the upside, $4 more per hour times 20 is $80 more dollars a week, which will buy a lot of manga. And this sounds like a prestigious position.
On the downside, you have your whole life to make money, and 20 hrs at work a is lot less time with friends and for extracurriculars. If you tell them you can't do it because of school, I doubt that they'd hate you. They know you're good and you would still be high on their list for promotions.
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Date: 2005-07-15 05:42 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2005-07-15 08:40 pm (UTC)I think I'll interview. I'll talk to the area coordinator face to face and explain to them that I am a full time student, and see what they say. I'm only taking four classes, so I guess it's doable. But I do love my sleep.
And you're right, if I tell them it's cause of school, I doubt they'll hate me.